Life right now...

Do you ever want to just run away? I do, and lately its all the time. Life seems to be really crazy lately with graduating and turning that page of my life over and there are so many things that are hard to let go of. Its like walking into a black hole. Its very scary and exciting at the same time. I like change its fun sometimes to try something new or break a routine but when your about to change everything and face challenges that force you to have to think on your own... well.... thats kinda scary. I guess this is just one of those things you have to do. Its not like you can just give up and quite. Well you could but life would really suck if you did. I think what Im trying to say is that I have been a little stressed and it doesn't matter because I have to face the future in front of me. No turning back. I have made it this far and now its time to do something with my life and make a difference. I can do this...

" Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go." -Joshua 1:9

"day and night"

I have been thinking a lot about the words "day and night" lately. I have been reading/memorizing/meditating on Joshua 1: 8-9. In verse 8 it says to meditate on God's word "day and night". Those words seemed to pop out when I read them. All throughout high school I have been taught by the church that it is important to have a quiet time weather it be 5 min 10 min or even an hour. I was told that God wanted to spend time with me and even if I only gave him 5 min of my whole heart that he would be happy with that. Im not saying that I disagree. I don't I do believe that we should give God the time he deserves and I know that some days it is hard to make that time. Believe me. I know. It happens often. I get in a rut or I spend my day doing other stuff and by the time I go to sleep I have either forgotten or I was too tired to take the time to spend with God. The challenge that I have been facing is this. God want's more than 5 min of my time. He wants my whole "day and night". I have been challenged to start my day and end my day spending time in God's word. ITS NOT EASY but I feel like thats part of the deal. Its always easier to get on Facebook or text your friend or even just go to sleep instead. But when you spend your time meditating "day and night" on what God has to say to you it makes living a whole lot more exciting. Like I said, its not always easy, but what would life be without the challenge? Who would God be if we didn't have to trust in Him? Im still a work in progress and I am excited for what God is teaching me, but I want to challenge YOU to think about what it would look like to meditate on God's word "day and night".

Joshua 1: 8 " Keep this Book of Law always on your lips; meditate on it day and night so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful."

Day 1

Today is day one of my blog, which is weird because I never thought I would be a blogger. Sometimes I think that certain days would be very boring to blog about (which is true) but I was thinking and realized that I don't have to blog every day! So thats a plus! Other days, like less boring ones, I want to tell everyone I see about what happened (those are the days I will blog). I thought blogging was like journaling, well it is, but its kinda not in a way. When I journal I know no one is reading it and I feel like an idiot because I never know what "person" to write it in. Like do I write it like Im thinking it? or do I write it like Im telling it? or neither and just write it like its not me and its some narrator narrating my life? Yeah its too confusing for me and then I feel weird about it and give up on it. It end up being very unorganized writing. With a blog, I feel like Im writing so that other people are reading so its more interesting to write and tell about things. Not like Im "talking" to a wall or something. Anyways, even if you don't read my blog I still feel like Im writing it to you and that makes me happy! Just so you know ahead of time, I am not a writer in the sense that I am correct in grammar and spelling. Im mostly usually always misspelling and stuff. So, sorry in advanced. I also tend to put lots of periods and commas and such stuff in weird places because I write like I think it (or say it). So. sorry. <--- see what I mean?!

I hope you like my blog. So do I really. ha! anyways. goodnight :)