"8 Keep this Book of the Law always on your lips; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. 9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.” - Joshua 1:8-9
There are times in life when you come to a point of "what was I thinking?" moments. I just realized Im in one of those. The funny thing about it is I didn't know I was that far off until I, of corse, had a little break down. Sometimes little break downs are what get you to realize what's going on thats wrong. I know that I haven't been in a good mood and I was thinking to myself "MY BRAIN IS MESSED UP! WHATS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?!", soon to find out that I was just a tiny bit off kilter. So what's the issue? you might be thinking. I'll tell you. I havent been spending a lot of time on this one relationship. It's the relationship I am living for too. Why the heck would I neglect that relationship? What was I thinking? Answer. I wasn't! My relationship with God is number one so why on earth would I neglect to keep it that way?! When your heart is not turned towards God you can tell, or at least I can. I get moody, angry, sad, insecure, questioning everyone and their motives, a pain (to myself and everyone else). Its a bad combo. Now when Im in the word everyday and making an effort to do so Im none of those (well maybe sometimes) I am happy, carefree (in a good kind of way), in a good mood, not a pain... you get it. Its just better that way! I know its sometimes easy to get astray and to lose focus on what is most important (your relationship with God) but when you are in focus and living in Gods will He will honor that. He will reveal Himself to you in ways you didn't think possible. He will show you things about yourself you didn't know were there. He will give you things and opportunities you don't expect. He will give you that love you search for in all the wrong places. He will give you peace in the storms. He will be there for you always. He is never not there. He is your father, your creator, the love of your life. He is the reason you wake up in the morning. He is the reason you are living for. Without Him everything that means something to you really means nothing. Without Him there is no life. Try not to make my mistake and get a little off kilter. Its never fun for you or anyone else for that matter. Its important to stay in the word everyday. When you don't you create problems.
I would like to apologize to anyone I may have hurt or caused problems with. Sorry for being ridiculous. I want you to know I didn't mean to say or do anything to hurt you or to make you mad. It was just me in the wrong light. So Im sorry again. Please forgive me.
God is my light. He saves me when I need saving. He comforts me when I feel down. He gives me strength to push through the storm when I feel its too strong. He encourages me when I need encouragement and most of all He forgives me when I have done wrong. He holds me in his arms when I am alone. He loves me. I love Him.
-rqh
