Every time I close my eyes...

The sun is beating down on my bare skin. Its hot but as the sea breeze whips around my body and encloses it in just seconds of a slight chill it makes the heat bearable. As I lay in the sand that molds around my body ever so perfectly, I can hear the waves as they roll and crash into the sand at the edge of the shoreline. I can almost see it, though my eyes are practically glued shut, the blue-green wave turning into white wave only to be pulled back in to form again. I can hear the seagulls as they talk to each other about what I am not sure. Probably how wonderful it is to fly over head of all the people enjoying each others company and playing in the sand. Although I have almost slipped into a different world, I can still hear the faint laughter and chatter of the families, love birds, and friends at the beach. I can imagine the children making sand castles and the parents sitting back and observing the complexities of the child's mind and its creativity. I can see the couple walking down the beach, hand in hand, picking up shells and talking about the life they have dreamed up together. I see the groups of friends, walking up and down the beach throwing around a volleyball and listening to music. I see people at the ice cream shop getting a scoop of coconut ice cream on a sugar cone or a chocolate shake. So many different flavors to choose from. Everyone, including myself, is simply enjoying the simple things in life. Sand, Sun, Water, and the enjoyable and delightful company of those around us. Not to mention one of the most vast and most intricate creation's given to us by God Himself.

Im already there every time I close my eyes...

because I did.

Im still confused some days.
What happened?
Will I ever really know?
Does it really matter?
It happened.
Its over.
I did nothing wrong.
I forgave.
Im moving on...
because I can
because I will
because I am
because I did.
God is my healer.


  Love never fails
1 Corinthians 13:4-7

RQH

I choose love...

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.  It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres." 

   -1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Love is a choice. Its hard to live this out especially when you get hurt....

I choose love. 

Love,

   RQH